There are two lines that continually pop into my head at times when I need a boost of motivation. The first is Don’t do it because it’s easy but because it’s hard. For some reason it always comes to mind at times when things get tough, whether it was struggling with a college project in the eleventh hour or getting through three days of labour on baby number three.
It’s actually a line paraphrased from a speech John Kennedy gave in 1962, ‘we choose to go the moon in this decade and do the other things, not because they are are easy, but because they are hard.’ This I only found out recently. It’s strange the power these mantras can have to motivate when we need it. Another line that comes to mind at times when I’m struggling to keep going is Feck it, just do it!
So here I am, both swirling around in my mind, both fighting against my inner pessimist and worst case scenario-ist. After much deliberation about becoming self-employed in the end it all happened quickly and I was presenting a business plan and mailing my tax registration form to revenue in the same week. The latter filling me with mild terror as I dropped it into the post office.
I have decided to freelance it. Freelance digital marketing, editing and writing. Other than the flexibility that comes with being a freelancer I am most excited about finally having the creative freedom to build and grow my own business. For as long as I can remember I have wanted to be my own boss. I have a photo of myself aged ten on a family holiday in Portugal wearing a baseball cap with the word ‘BOSS’ in bright bold letters. My family knew me so well. Being my own boss was what attracted me to studying business at college and pushed me to go back to do my Masters degree four years ago.
If you had of asked fifteen year old me what I wanted to be when I grew up I would have said a writer. It has always been a passion of mine so now I get to combine my two lifelong ambitions. That’s the plan anyway.
When I wrote about becoming a stay-at-home mum back in March I mentioned the benefits for us as a family with me being at home. And those benefits are still very much at the forefront of my mind now with this venture. Having the flexibility to work around my life with the kids is paramount. I don’t want to return to the chaos of working full-time, constantly pre-occupied with work and not giving the kids my full attention so this will an experiment of sorts in the short-term. And it is going to be hard but definitely worth trying.
All going to plan I’m launching at the beginning of October and we’ll take it from there. Wish me luck!